Creation, create and be creative are three things that have been surrounding my day and night these past two weeks.
Right and wrong are not in the equation, especially when it comes to new ideas during a brainstorming session.
I’ve been in and out of trainings in just three weeks, with two more training coming out next week and in June 2013. While I’ve been busy, I feel blessed to see things in a new perspective.
Again, doubt is lingering around me when I think of an idea. The trick I learn is to give that idea 15 minutes to sink in and only evaluate whether it can be considered. I also learn that recording thoughts and ideas are essential because my logic brain tends to get the better of my silly side - I eventually forget the great idea I dreamt about the night before.
I was a dreamer, it was part of me and my parents used to tell me that I daydream more than I study. After hearing the nags, I conditioned myself to eliminate daydream because I assume it is something bad.
Today, I am a pessimist, though most people think that I am an optimist, simply because I smile or laugh out loud more. I see my ideas or capability as average, which is why I say doubt is my biggest weakness.
This year shall be the year I turn on my dreamy brain and let ideas flow. With more and more creative projects at hand, I believe 2013 is a year of creation, for me.
I like this quote by Jim Carrey:
“I really believe in the philosophy that you create your own universe. I’m just trying to create a good one for myself.”
I come here when I need to do a bit of soul searching. It’s bad when I come here too often and just as bad when I don’t come here at all.
There are many days I waste, by just doing the minimal. I get by. I don’t work for it. I may put on a face and tell you that I am doing ‘OK’, but inside I hate ‘getting by’. The other part of me is a procrastinator. So even though I enjoy work, I tend to fall back into laziness when I get too comfortable.
It is exactly 348 days since I got employed in this ‘new’ job and I already feel that I can settle down at this job. And, that’s the scary part. Honestly, there’s no ‘plan B’ if I suddenly lose this job (I hope not!). There’s no finding something-else-that-might-come-in-handy-work. This thought of not having anything else at hand hit me today. It scares me when I realise that I am too comfortable working here.
There’re challenges, but I feel at peace even when I have to be on my feet, which is good. It is only bad when I get lazy doing other things.
So, what’s the road map for 2013? The first quarter is gone and I have yet to accomplish anything.