Lemony Lemons

Creation

Sat, 04 May 2013 22:51:20 +0800

Creation, create and be creative are three things that have been surrounding my day and night these past two weeks.

Right and wrong are not in the equation, especially when it comes to new ideas during a brainstorming session.

I’ve been in and out of trainings in just three weeks, with two more training coming out next week and in June 2013. While I’ve been busy, I feel blessed to see things in a new perspective.

Again, doubt is lingering around me when I think of an idea. The trick I learn is to give that idea 15 minutes to sink in and only evaluate whether it can be considered. I also learn that recording thoughts and ideas are essential because my logic brain tends to get the better of my silly side - I eventually forget the great idea I dreamt about the night before.

I was a dreamer, it was part of me and my parents used to tell me that I daydream more than I study. After hearing the nags, I conditioned myself to eliminate daydream because I assume it is something bad.

Today, I am a pessimist, though most people think that I am an optimist, simply because I smile or laugh out loud more. I see my ideas or capability as average, which is why I say doubt is my biggest weakness.

This year shall be the year I turn on my dreamy brain and let ideas flow. With more and more creative projects at hand, I believe 2013 is a year of creation, for me.

I like this quote by Jim Carrey:

“I really believe in the philosophy that you create your own universe. I’m just trying to create a good one for myself.”

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Wed, 01 May 2013 09:08:40 +0800

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cosascool:

The Power of Books byMladen Penev

READ AND RELATE HERE

staff: “Ok, I might be a Tumblr nerd but look what I made :)” —...

Wed, 01 May 2013 09:07:40 +0800

staff:

“Ok, I might be a Tumblr nerd but look what I made :)” — hoppip

buzzfeeddiy: Throw the Gatsby wedding you’ve always wanted...

Mon, 15 Apr 2013 22:13:04 +0800

buzzfeeddiy:

Throw the Gatsby wedding you’ve always wanted (death/demise of the American dream optional).

Soul Searching

Mon, 15 Apr 2013 22:11:16 +0800

I come here when I need to do a bit of soul searching. It’s bad when I come here too often and just as bad when I don’t come here at all.

There are many days I waste, by just doing the minimal. I get by. I don’t work for it. I may put on a face and tell you that I am doing ‘OK’, but inside I hate ‘getting by’. The other part of me is a procrastinator. So even though I enjoy work, I tend to fall back into laziness when I get too comfortable.

It is exactly 348 days since I got employed in this ‘new’ job and I already feel that I can settle down at this job. And, that’s the scary part. Honestly, there’s no ‘plan B’ if I suddenly lose this job (I hope not!). There’s no finding something-else-that-might-come-in-handy-work. This thought of not having anything else at hand hit me today. It scares me when I realise that I am too comfortable working here.

There’re challenges, but I feel at peace even when I have to be on my feet, which is good. It is only bad when I get lazy doing other things.

So, what’s the road map for 2013? The first quarter is gone and I have yet to accomplish anything.

Guilty Being A Child, A Sibling

Sat, 30 Mar 2013 22:29:00 +0800

In my three years of working life, I’ve never felt more guilty to my parents, as a child.

I feel guilty for not being able to provide them financial security, comfort and most of all; company.

Some people may think that it is normal for a 25 year old adult to not have enough money, but I find it sad for not being able to give my parents the comfort they deserve. I feel the need to care for them in more ways than one. There are times I think about how much sacrifices they made so that my brother and I will be alright, all the time.

I only feel better when I pay for meals, provide them pocket money or just being around them for one whole day. However,at the same time, I feel all that is nothing compared to all that they had done and still doing for my brother and I.

As for my only elder brother, I feel that I am not a good sister due to the lack of conversations we have, as of late. He’s busy with work and I don’t even send him text messages to talk to him. I shamefully admit that I am taking him for granted.

There’s actually nothing much to worry about, only that I need to make changes to appreciate them more. I hope, it’s not too late, really.

What you love, you do

Sun, 17 Mar 2013 11:05:47 +0800

Right choice, wrong choice. Right and wrong can be complicated when everyone else in your life decides to share his or her opinion with you.

Well, guess what? In 2012, I gave myself a deadline to make a difference, to find a way to do what I love.

When I finally made the decision to accept another job offer, I knew I wasn’t going to turn back and not regret my stubborn decision.

Today, I can very well tell everyone I have never regretted switching jobs. I love what I do and my talent has not gone to waste. The best part is, dollars and cents come into equation as well. I am feeling pretty happy about that.

The only mistake I ever made was to doubt myself, doubt my own abilities.

So, to whoever who said that I didn’t think about my career, think of the opportunities I am missing by switching jobs, here’s what I have to say:

Thanks for your opinion, but no thanks. Seriously.

This time around, last year

Tue, 05 Feb 2013 13:28:41 +0800

This time around, last year, I fell sick and stayed home for more than a week.

While I had high fever, I thought about my job and the utterly painful toothache of my wisdom tooth.

It was a pretty painful time and miraculously, I lost some weight then. Haha…the losing weight part was funny, actually.

This year,now….I am not sick(yay!) And am happily typing away using a Samsung Tab 10.1, not from a laptop. Oh, I am also watching ‘One Day’for the fourth time, I think. It is on HBO, and one of my favourite movies.

I am just glad to be doing what I like to do and happy about everything else, this year.

Chinese New Year is this weekend and I am excited to have a nice...

Tue, 05 Feb 2013 13:22:08 +0800

Chinese New Year is this weekend and I am excited to have a nice reunion dinner with my family :)

It has been seven years since we shifted and we are happy about that.

The past may be apart of you, but it is the past. Don’t let the past define who you are.

How much and how far

Thu, 31 Jan 2013 03:49:00 +0800

How much can you tolerate and how much can you hurt someone else?

There’s no definite number.

It depends on how you feel.

I feel that I have less patience in comparison to seven years ago when I was oh-so-green and young.

Past experiences taught me that tolerance and patience need to have a limit or some people may just take you for granted.

I definitely did not feel that I was being angry. I was more irritated, really.

Sorry about that, I didn’t intend to raise my voice.

Alas, it’s always the smaller details that hurt most.

So, I’ve decided to rock to boat to see how far can we go.

Ready?

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Mon, 21 Jan 2013 12:22:40 +0800

staff:

This is HUGE!

Panoramas just got a big new view on Tumblr. Try it on your blog, the Dashboard, and the latest iPhone/iPad app too!

This works automatically for super-wide (3:1) high-res (1000px wide) photo uploads. And theme developers can now style panoramas in Tumblr themes with the {block:Panorama} tag.

Panorama by Blaine Davis

Famous Resolution Lists: Jonathan Swift, Susan Sontag, Marilyn...

Mon, 14 Jan 2013 19:44:09 +0800

Famous Resolution Lists: Jonathan Swift, Susan Sontag, Marilyn Monroe, Woody Guthrie
Maria Popova, brainpickings.org

“Love everybody. Make up your mind. Wake up and fight.”‘Tis the season for New Year’s resolutions, but instead of regurgitating the most common ones — like changing habit loops, exercising more, and being more productive — here is a look at…

Reflect

Sat, 05 Jan 2013 08:32:12 +0800

The only two times I hate reflecting the past, is about you and what happened in 2006.

I hate it because I quickly spiral down into a rabbit hole, thinking that whatever happened was all my fault.

As for you, I allow myself to be too vulnerable and after three years, I realise that I am the fool in love. There’s no better way to put it than to say it bluntly.

Previously, I said that nothing lasts forever and boy, that quickly came to light yesterday.

Here I am, still with you. So, what’s next?

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Sat, 05 Jan 2013 08:17:53 +0800

makemestfu:

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debilis: THE LIGHTS ARE MOVING OMFG

Sat, 05 Jan 2013 08:16:58 +0800

debilis:

THE LIGHTS ARE MOVING OMFG

Trust - A Long Way To Go

Wed, 26 Dec 2012 03:11:16 +0800

I’ve never thought that this word ‘trust’ can be repeated so many times in a week. Regardless of the language, I’ve probably said it more than a hundred times.

I find it difficult to believe that anything can last. Nothing lasts.

Only change is permanent.

And this time, it saddens me.

Because, one good word that means so much means so little, at the same time.

I think and I feel, it is time to slowly sort things out and let go.

I know...

Wed, 26 Dec 2012 03:02:41 +0800

I know I am difficult and there are many others who are way better than I am.

I know I can be annoying and not in the best body shape.

I know I am not ideal, not perfect.

But, I also know what my heart wants and if it has been lying.

So, really, if you don’t believe me…I am quite done.

buzzfeed: There’s an island in Japan where wild cats wander...

Sun, 09 Dec 2012 13:17:48 +0800

buzzfeed:

There’s an island in Japan where wild cats wander freely through the streets, boatyards, porches, and houses of the city. I want to go to there.

digitalewolke: Grandpa´s Magic Trick This ad is wonderfully...

Sun, 09 Dec 2012 13:16:07 +0800

digitalewolke:

Grandpa´s Magic Trick

This ad is wonderfully charming, simple and great (two month old, but if you havn´t seen it before, look at the spot for Widerøe). “McCann Oslo” Advertisement Company has shot this creative clip for Norwegian low-fare airline Widerøe - Director Marius Holst. It was chosen by AdWeek as one of the ten most beautiful commercials of 2012. I love this.

sosuperawesome: How to Make a Baby by photographer Patrice...

Sun, 09 Dec 2012 13:15:44 +0800

sosuperawesome:

How to Make a Baby by photographer Patrice Laroche and Sandra Denis, the mother of his new baby daughter Justine.